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Hey Peeps,

Well I now find myself procrastinating once again, it is time for me to start packing again. It's the second time this year I've had to pack my stuff up and move on. Although this time, it is less deconstructing a life, and more just deconstucting my room.

The first time was in January. I had had enough and I took it upon myself to destroy the last three years of my life. I was with a girl who I had slowly come to realize was only with me so I could get my degree, get a better paying job, so she could pop out a kid and not work. It's hard coming to the realization that the life you had built was based on a lie. Harder still breaking it all down, putting it into boxes, throwing away memories of a future that was now no longer meant to be. Even if it was for the better. This was particularly difficult for me, because even though I was to be free; I've never dealt with being alone very well. Blue

From there I moved into a 9' x 10' cave, with a friend I had recently met and his roommate. Which is where I now currently reside, we are misfits, we are a family. We each play our particlar role in the group and look out for eachother as best we can. I started living here in early February, and since then we have had our struggles, not among each other; but with an absentee landlord who refused to pay the mortgage with the rent money we so dutifully gave her. All that said though the cave has grown on me; it is now home. So I procrastinate in deconstructing this new home, I blog, I listen to The Smiths, New Order, and My Favorite. I don't pack. New Wave

Come Sunday though we will be in a new home, with another member added to our family. A much nicer place, no closer to my job (meaning more money spent in gas on top of the rent increase), but a real steal. Living in the second over-priced housing market in the U.S. it is hard to find bargains. But a 5 bedroom 4 bath 3000 sq ft house for $1800 a month is something you just can't pass up. There I'll keep trying to put myself back together; as best I can, and hope whoever she is who is looking for me finds me (if she even exists). Boy

Take it easy,

-NewWaveBoyBlue-

NewWaveBoyBlue & Unkhammun saying goodbye to the cave

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